Missing

i feel loved by many, but understood by few,
my spanish half brother and italian maestro to name two,

the genius deago who has a problem with drinking,
but also a unique insight into how my mind is thinking.
cos over the last 18 years,
hes seen the tears,
and the passionate outbursts after too many beers,
now he fully comprehends my strengths and my fears.
so much time has passed and our love never sours,
we are different raindrops from the same rain showers.

i must confess,
that 3 years ago i was in a mess,
suffering from the fallout from a nuclear explosion,
the result of a relationship which suffered too much erosion.

i was in need of help, and thats what i found,
in the mind behind the voice with the musical sound.
the nearest ive had to a real life dad,
made me generally stop feelling sad,
maybe he saw from the way i was behaving,
that for a calming influence on my life i was subconsciously craving.

since then we have become more like brothers,
scolded in the same way by our mothers,
sharing ideas,
rejoicing together when the winter cloud clears.

they both posses,
an ability to do more than just guess,
what is going on inside my head,and in the bottom of my heart,
they are 2 fellow aquarians, both wise, caring and smart.
they know my thoughts, my actions,
my favourtie distractions,
i have them and the beautiful lady im always kissing,
but still i fell like something is missing.

i wanna know what,
i need that i havent got,
and where exactly i can find,
the key to producing peace in my mind.