pure venom in my face (april 07)

By a girl,
And the lies she sold me,
She spat pure venom in my face,
While I stood there three weeks ago, begging her to just hold me…

Yeh there were some tears in her eyes,
But behind them was Hate,
She said she felt Nothing,
When only a few months back she was telling me that I was her Dream Lover, her Dream mate…

I had believed in her words,
When she swore to be my wife,
I had believed in her Love,
Which she showed me was the most important thing in her Life…

She was all my Dreams come true,
and I was the happiest man on Earth,
She called me morning day and night to express her devotion,
Filling me with the warmest kinda Self Worth..

But now I see,
That she wasn’t seeking me,
That she isn’t the angel she has made herself out to be…

Because She changed me like a jumper,
Went from my arms into another man’s bed,
And since she left me on my birthday,
I have been horribly fucked up in the head…

Not sleeping, nor eating,
Letting myself get painfully down,
While I chased in vain after the girl I was planning on dressing in a beautiful wedding gown……

All these years I believed her devotion was True,
That she meant it when she looked into my eyes and said softly: ‘Dan, I love you’

But it seems now, that I was Wrong,
And that for nearly four years she has been lying,
Never did I imagine that she would be snorting coke, fucking another man,
While I was marooned in the flat and unable to stop crying….